Mainiero Family Blog

Fear - Comfort - Gratitude - Faith

2011-02-19T19:40:00.000-08:00

Last week we reserved a week at a condo in Gulf Shores, AL. Our annual trip that began eight years ago was interrupted last year due to the oil spill. When I started thinking about the fact that our first trip to Gulf Shores was eight years ago, my mind went back to the anxiety and fear we had about taking a family vacation that included a drive of 8 or more hours with two kids ages 4 and 6. Most of the fear was related to Zachary and how he would handle each part of the trip. So trouble shooting and acquisition of provisions included:

1. A picture storybook as a tool to start talking to Zachary about the trip - complete with a pictures of the house we would be staying in; waves; the beach; and all of the people who would be going with us; and a calendar with the days marked with a countdown and the seven days we would be gone marked with a picture of the beachouse. The result of this was Zachary learning a new phrase that fueled my anxiety even more. Actually it was an adaptation of his "Bye Bye Doctor" - He repeated "Bye Bye Beach" over and over for the weeks before and the 8+ hour drive to Gulf Shores.

2. Perscription anti-nausea medicine for the carsickness that was guaranteed to hit him since he looks out of the car window and follows the things we pass with his eyes. The result of this was learning that Zachary does not get car sick but Jacob does.

3. A nonfiction book that I read before the trip was recommended by someone at Waldenbooks. It was amazing how much the family was like ours. Two boys, one that has autism, planning a trip to the beach...etc. As I read the result of their trip to the beach, I started to pray that this is where our families differed. Their child did not like the sound of running water from a faucet, water going down a drain, or the toilet flushing. They never imagined that the sound of the waves would cause the same reaction. Their trip to the beach was cut short because he just couldn't adjust.

4. A car full of everything and anything we could think of that would make him comfortable in a new place (that he may not like) for an entire week. This included video tapes (we had already made sure there would be a VCR and TV in multiple places), the entire Thomas the Tank Engine set, books, cassette tape and headphones, his favorite snack items including popcorn, etc.

As Victor and I were discussing the details of the 2011 Gulf Shores trip, Zachary was walking around and definitely listening to every word we said. He kept repeating "Beach in June. Mommy, beach in June." After about 15 minutes of this, he sat down next to me placing an old plastic 4x6 photo album in my lap and started to turn the pages. It contained some of my favorite pictures of our 2003 beach trip.

With the first look at the Gulf and the beach that separated us from it, "bye bye beach" was replaced with "hi beach! hi beach" and for each of the next eight years we have heard "Going to the Beach in June" beginning in February.

So curious but cautious...As soon as I saw him pick up the sand and let it run between his fingers and then saw his little toes approach the cool waters of the Gulf, I knew God had answered my prayers of peace and calm. Watching him as he interacted with his surroundings, I had a feeling that Zachary was forming a lifelong friendship with someone who he felt an instant connection with, who understand him just as he was, and with no expectations of who he should have been.

In the above list of items, I included the popcorn (a hit for sure) but I didn't mention the two most special! His cousins, Ashley and Austin, were so excited we all got to go together and Zachary loved that he could see them everyday. Austin took protected him and Ashley entertained him with Martina McBride songs. Michelle and Joe along with Maw and Papa Tonjes were also there with us to help with each activity. It was a blessing to be together.

Out of all of the things we thought of as possible triggers (actually, I didn't just think about them...I had them in a list/chart format) and what we had determined to be a possible solution to minimize his fears and anxieties, the biggest issue was related to the night. Zachary's sleep routine was still a huge problem at home as we struggled to get him to fall and stay asleep. Exhausted does not even begin to describe how we were feeling in 2003. Even Jacob was being kept awake at night because Zachary would cry for hours until we gave in and let him watch TV. So if this was a problem at home, it was sure to be worse in a different state, city, house, bedroom, and bed. But...

...we brought along a new blanket (we called it his Beach Blanket) made by a sweet teacher and his favorite extra long pillow with the perfectly soft pillow case. Those items combined with a long day of playing with his new best friend (the Gulf) added up to a very sleepy boy.

If only I would have been able to reach inside my soul and recall scriptures of comfort that can only be found by knowing God's words, I am sure I would have trusted Him more and stressed less. So I say a prayer of thanks to you Lord for giving me words of truth and hope, trusting me with raising three precious children who belong to you, and surrounding me with people who have taught me about what FAITH really means.

When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy. Psalm 94:19

Lesson Learned - Again

2011-02-19T15:57:00.000-08:00

This picture was sent to me by Zachary's teacher while they were on a field trip. As soon as I opened the file and saw his happy face, my eyes filled with tears. Zachary and his classmates went on a field trip with the other students from Cope Middle School. I don't usually share things in mass emails and some things I keep close to the heart but as an educator who works with students, teachers and parents daily, I am blessed to be reminded today that these learning experiences that seem routine reach far beyond the students and teachers.

What have I learned just from Zachary's smile in the attached picture? Victor and I should/must take more "risks" so that Zachary can experience more of what is normal for a boy his age. Over the years, we have had a habit of protecting him. It is hard to explain why we wouldn't have taken him to a 3-D movie but simply stated we are in the habit of protecting him from potential anxiety that may be triggered by the sensory components of Autism. Obviously, this is not happening by the looks of the picture or if it is, he is figuring out how to manage the emotions so he can enjoy the show. Of course, I am sure he was thinking about the big piece of pizza coming his way after the movie.

I could not wait to get home to him Friday night so he could share some details of the experience with me. That wouldn't be able to happen until after the Bossier High Basketball game where I was working at the gate. Another teacher at Cope who knows Zachary came to the game and was able to share more details with me about what he did when he returned. She said he kept the glasses on when they went to their club time. Without the pictures and the other details to refer to, the response would have been an echo of the question I asked. I showed him the pictures and he got a huge smile on his face and started telling me bits and pieces over the next ten minutes. What a joy it was to listen to him five short and quick statements with that precious smile on his face.

To sum it up...Thank you to the educators who take the risks and make sacrifices to educate ALL children! As a parent, I have learned to be more like the educators and provide Zachary with as many experiences possible so that he can learn and grow!

Events or Routines – Bugs or Dust

2011-01-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

Events or Routines – Bugs or Dust

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:18

So many times I have been asked “Don’t you wish you could record everything that is going on inside Zachary’s mind?” Actually, I wish I could crawl in his brain and see what he sees, think what he thinks, and know what he knows. Even if it were just for one calendar year so that I could understand what triggers him to do certain things every year with no prompting by us and see how he sees the dust particles floating in the air that no one else can see but insists they are bugs.

After finally being given a name to associate Zachary’s delays and “quirky” behaviors with, I went on a mad dash to research all that I could. Why I bought multiple books that all said the same thing, I have no idea but I do know that it made me feel in control. I was so excited to read that autistic individuals like routines and things in an orderly fashion and may have shouted “me too me too.” Then there is the they don’t like crowds which I am certain prompted me to declare “yes! No parades necessary. I will hang with Zachary at the house.” But what are routines? Before being the mother of my autistic son, Zachary, routines were pretty much narrowed down to daily and maybe weekly. Get up, get ready, go to work, come home, go to bed and repeat the rest of the week, enjoy the weekend and start all over on Monday. Routines for Zachary definitely consist of what we all consider routines but as each year passes, I am more and more convinced for him the routines are events. Like the picture above…why is Zachary carrying around the Gulf Shores book in January? Why in late July does he start asking about his backpack? Or in October, he repeats “Thanksgiving Vacation” over and over again? You would think we have a large calendar posted in the house or that he carries one with him. I cannot explain it but he just knows what time of year it is and begins to prepare his body and mind for what is to come. Maybe I better take his cue and start those beach vacation workout videos!

Deeper readings of the details of autism caused a reaction that was more like “wow…how cool is that! I wish I could…” Of course there is the Rainman characteristics so vividly portrayed in the movie like counting the toothpicks and memorizing the phonebook in a matter of minutes. But the one that has stuck in my head and baffled me was something I first read in Temple Grandin’s book Thinking in Pictures. She explains that household electricity turns on and off sixty times each second and some autistic people see each instance of turning on and off. Are you kidding me? I am pretty certain that if I saw the lights turning on and off at a rapid fire rate, I would have a meltdown of epic (even though that is one of the 2010 overused words, it fits) proportions. But what about my Zachary? Is he one of the people who can see it? How would I know? When he was four or five years old, I remember bringing him to Benton High School with me one summer and was so nervous because all he wanted to do was turn the lights on and off repeatedly in Mr. Smith’s (my Principal) office while standing in the chair. Off course, Mr. Smith allowed him to do it and like me had no idea why he was so intent on turning them on and off 100 times. I for sure did not associate this activity with being able to see the lights flicker on and off 60 times every second.

But what about dust particles – you know…the kind you and I can typically only see when the sun light shines through your window? I am embarrassed to admit that I cannot tell you how many months (maybe years) we listened to Zachary proclaim there were bugs in some part of the house only to follow him to investigate to find no bugs. He would point and we would see anything. I would even get the bug spray and spray a little bit to try and appease him temporarily. After at least two dozen bug expeditions, we started to just say “Zach, there are no bugs.” Again I am embarrassed to admit that while there were never any bugs or anything resembling them to be seen by our eyes, to Zachary’s eyes there were an infinite number to be seen. No…not the kind that bite, sting, crawl or fly. But the kind that can only be seen by “typical people” when the sun’s rays enter through a window.

Christmas Letter 2010 - Bonus Material

2011-01-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

After receiving and reading our letter, a dear friend pointed out that while she loved the letter, I had left off some of the best moments of 2010. Well, consider this the bonus material for all of you who may not have received a mailed copy. If you received a copy in the mail, skip ahead to the Bonus Material section.

2010 HAPPENINGS As you read this, Christmas and possibly the year 2010 have passed, a new year is upon us and we hope your holidays and year were blessed beyond imagination! The year 2010 was anything but boring for our family. In fact, we often find ourselves wondering what the state of boredom feels like. Major changes this year included a new position for Melissa in the Bossier Parish School system where she is at Bossier High School as a graduation coach working to increase student and school performance. She continues to teach online undergraduate education courses at LSUS and is thrilled to be back in the school system where two of the kids are in school. This brings us to the next set of “majors” taking place. Jacob, almost 15, started high school this year and is on the Airline HS JV Soccer team. He is doing well in the academic and athletic settings. They are on the 4x4 block schedule and with 4 courses behind him, he ended the semester with a 4.0. Next year’s letter is sure to contain events related to teaching him to drive a car. Zachary moved from an elementary school setting to Cope Middle School and is truly blessed to be among teachers, administrators and students who have a heart for all God’s children. The Adventure Club is a treat for him and we love hearing how regular education kids plan activities for Zachary and the other special needs students. We love him just as he is and cannot wait to see all God has planned for him in 2011. Ava…school? Well, let’s just say she is in the “School of Ava” this year. For 3 years old, she is quite the director and amazes us every day with an imagination that only a child could dream up. As an example, she wanted to sit on the alligator’s lap instead of Santa’s at Bass Pro Shop (she renamed it Pumpkin Shop – pretty sure she is confusing the holidays). Thankfully, the alligators were not there the night we made the trip. There is a brilliant star on top of the steeple of Faith Chapel. It is 3D and has bright spikes coming out of it so Ava insists that it has “baby Superman” in it since it looks like the crystal thing he traveled to earth in – A sign that she has older siblings. She has added a renewed energy to our family and keeps ALL of us on our toes. Papa and Grandma T cannot get enough of her and find a lot to laugh about when she is around. With the addition of nephew number six born to John and Kasie, Ava is no longer the youngest grandchild on Victor’s side of the family. We thought there would be some jealousy shown when she saw Miles being held by Papa and Mimi Mainiero or at least when WE held him but no. She was most upset as Jacob held him on Christmas Eve.

2010 BONUS MATERIAL For the past 5 years, we have talked about getting either a boat or a pool and have debated both sides of both options atleast 100 times. The chosen summer vacation spot of Gulf Shores, AL was sadly interrupted by the oil spill. Knowing that Zachary would not quite understand "Yes, we are here at the beach but you cannot get anywhere near the water," we cancelled and decided to go to Lake Greeson in Arkansas which finally prompted us to take the plunge and buy that boat. Victor apparently did not believe me when I told him I knew how to drive a boat and provide some fun for any tube rider - no matter the age or gender. After the requested leisurely tube ride for me and Jacob turned into a stirring ride on the wakes of the Crownline, I had a temporary lapse in judgment and did not follow Leviticus 19:18
where we are commanded with "Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against anyone among your people, but love your neighbor as yourself." Off I we went with Jacob and Victor in the tube and me at the wheel. As you begin to imagine what happened next, let me just say that it ended with me behind the wheel of the Ford and Victor navigating us to the DeQueen, Arkansas Hospital ER. It would be much more pleasant for me to tell this story if I was the one that needed to be seen but I readily admit that Victor was injured to the point of tears and not feeling much like doing anything including breathing. However, we were provided with free entertainment as we waited in the large examining room with all of the other patients needing to be seen. The DeQueen ER is more like the Mash facility than anything I have ever seen but imagine the Mash characters transplanted to the Beverly Hillbillies or something like that and you will have a pretty close picture. Problem...much entertainment = much laughter but because Victor's final diagnosis was two cracked ribs, the laughing was yet another reminder that I did not follow the Lord's command to not seek revenge. The Veggie Tales song that they sing at the end of each video kept ringing in my ears "And so what we have learned applies to our lives today, God has a lot to say in his Book!" Apparently, not only is Lake Greeson just like glass, it happens to be like concrete when you are thrown from a tube going somewhat fast across a wake that was recreated in the same spot over and over by your revenge seeking wife. Thankfully, Jacob was only shaken up and Victor healed. Oh...did I mention this was day one of being on the Lake for a five day trip? All ended well and Zachary (our waterboy) LOVED the water, kneeboarding, and tubing more than I have seen him enjoy anything in a long time. If you noticed in the Christmas pictures, Santa brought him a new kneeboard that he cannot wait to try out in a few months. I am inserting some pictures below that speak for themselves. Well, maybe one needs explaining - the one with the person kneeboarding backwards, is Victor AFTER the broken ribs. Like I said, he healed quickly and was determined to get some activity on the water before we left.

AH-HA This fall, I (Melissa) had the opportunity during an interview for an article to sit down and talk to a friend about our family journey. The title of the column is “Faith Under Fire” and for the November the theme was Thankfulness. We talked for over two hours and I shared ALL of the main events beginning with when Victor and I met through the present time. Throughout the interview, I had several “ah ha” moments where God seemed to be saying “see, I told you there was a reason for…” I realized that while I have told many of the stories about our family walk with autism and journey to find the kind of faith that is made stronger because of struggles, it was the first time I had shared them in sequential order in one sitting. I was so worn out from the emotions and realizations that I felt I owed the interviewer either a payment for therapy services or an apology for the random tearful moments.

COINCIDENCE? We have all heard and probably said “wow, isn’t that a coincidence.” A short list of events in our family that may be seen as just coincidence: God placed Zachary in a family of educators, I was put on bed rest when I was pregnant with Zachary which led me back to the field of education, I was not selected to teach at the first school where I interviewed, I was chosen to teach at a school with an amazing group of educators (some are now teachers at Zachary’s middle school), one administrator who cultivated seeds of faith (who now happens to be an administrator at Zachary’s middle school) and another who shared his personal struggles of having a grown son with autism while giving me the “do whatever you have to do to help your son” advice on a daily basis. When each of these and countless other events happened, they seemed to be coincidental, independent and random. It is not until I looked back to see God’s hands in all of the little details that I was convinced with Him there are no coincidences and the word random is meaningless.

JOY In Kid Zone, the virtue for December was JOY - finding a way to be happy, even when things don't go your way. Not only must we be joyful, 1 Thessalonians 5:18 commands us to give thanks in all circumstances. Looking back on how we responded to Zachary being autistic, I can assure you that I was not joyful and did not give thanks. People would try and comfort us with words like “God does not give you more than you can handle” and “that which does not kill you makes you stronger.” I had heard and read scripture like Romans 8:28, Jeremiah 29:11, Philippians 2:13, Proverbs 19:21, Psalm 121, and Philippians 4:6 several times. All of that to say we knew a lot about what the Bible says for us to do but were failing at following His commands. I knew my life was not mine to plan and after many failed attempts of trying to navigate alone through the struggles that hit our family, we joined a church family where we learned about “troubled grace” and how to look to the Cross for strength and understanding. Yes, it is still hard sometimes to have joy and give thanks but when we do, the rewards are great!

EMMANUEL The celebration of the Birthday of Jesus Christ combined with the realization that the first decade of this Century is coming to an end has caused us to pause and reflect. This is probably why we were guided to write a letter that is less of a newsletter and more of a testimony and share how we moved from the pitiful state we were in ten years ago, as we tried to navigate life alone, to where we are today. We know this was only possible because of a relationship with Jesus Christ and being part of a community of believers who walk with us as we seek to grow closer to Him. Emmanuel, God with us, is all we need as a reminder to be joyful and give thanks in the circumstances that are all part of His plan. Blessings to you and your family in 2011 and may your lives be filled with joy and thankfulness.

Love,
Victor, Melissa, Jacob, Zachary, and Ava Mainiero

Connect the Dots

2010-12-27T08:54:00.000-08:00

CONNECT THE DOTS
Remember the activity books that had connecting the dots pages? They are great for teaching kids number order and recognition. Did you ever complete one and realize that you missed a number somewhere along the way and the final picture just didn’t look right? At that point, what did you do? Go back and erase all of the connections so that you could pick up the one missed? Ignore the original connection that was made and just add a new one? Or maybe you would just tear that page out and pretend you never tried it in the first place? I will let you guess which option describes my choice and share that when considering the activity pages of life, the method doesn’t matter because nothing happens due to our own hands. Yes, we do often miss a dot because of a choice we made or for whatever reason but He is there waiting to redirect us so that in the end the picture that remains is a perfect design reflective of His plan for our lives.
Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.

Reality Hits

2010-11-27T18:43:00.000-08:00

Over the years and not unique to me I am sure, I have had these moments when reality hits like a ton of bricks. Sometimes, I even think I feel the brick hit me upside the head but thankfully I am not knocked out (at least I don't think I am). Tonight included one of these moments. Victor is usually the one that says "Melissa, Zachary is ready for use to tuck him in and say his prayers" and then we both go in his room sometimes together and sometimes on our own to kiss him, recite his prayer and say goodnight. Tonight Victor was settled in to a spot where his back is in the least amount of pain and I was working in the kitchen. I realized that it was that time of night that we usually go into Zachary's room for our night time prayers so I went to his room and saw that he had already fallen asleep. I kneeled beside his bed staring at the sweet boy who is no longer a little boy but growing into a young man way too fast for me. Still kneeling beside him with my hand on his sweet face, I said his prayer (the one he has said since I can remember) over him as he laid there so peacefully:

"Dear Jesus, Thank you for this day. Stay in my heart and from my head to my toes. In Jesus name we pray....Amen."

I kissed his forehead and left his room with those bricks hitting me in the head as the reality that he cannot stay little forever even though life for him as a child would be so much easier than that of an adult. Yes, that is the reality that I see. After all, isn't life as a child easier for anybody? And even more so for someone with a disability? But...I cannot keep him young, stunt his physical growth or even lie about his age. However, I can remember the baby he was and look foward to the life WE will have with him as a teenager, young adult, grown man, etc. while helping him each step of the way.

My prayer tonight as I go to sleep will be:

"Dear Jesus, Thank you for these days and for the days to come. Stay in my heart and the hearts of my family and all those who meet them now and in the future. In Jesus name we pray. Amen."

Connecting the Dots

2010-11-19T21:11:00.000-08:00

After being asked to sit down for an interview that would produce the content for the "Faith Under Fire" column written monthly by a close friend who already knew a lot of the little pieces of our puzzle, I prayed that my heart would find words that reflected the thankfulness and joy that I feel but not mask the pain and loneliness that was present before faith was found.

Since the article went to print, we have received messages from countless family, friends, acquaintances and strangers. It was easy to tell the diversity of contexts in which they read the story and have shared their messages with us. After reading the fourth or fifth message, I realized that each time, portions of the lyrics below were going through my head hours later.

1st: "now I'm found"
2nd: "now I see"
3rd: "my fears relieved"
4th: "my chains are gone"
5th: "unending love"
6th & final: "the Lord has promised good to me"
and then a whisper probably not the exact translation of what God said: "Nough Said!"

Once again, God knew it was time for me to be able to sit down in my impromptu free therapy session with Dianne Howell and tell the story from beginning to present. Sitting for three hours to share over 13 years of events that turned into a game of connecting the dots caused some tears to be shed for the first time and "re shed" for the 100th, old wounds to resurface, and visions of lost memories to enter my heart and mind. While this may sound painful at first glance, this game of connecting the dots opened up a whole new and exciting chapter of our lives as a family of five. New roles to play, paths to chart, goals to conquer, etc.

Thank you to our God, our family, our Church, and our friends for helping us at each dot....

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

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Has it really been a year?

2010-11-18T17:48:00.000-08:00

So much has happened and I will soon post our annual Christmas letter. Until that time, here are some pictures so you can see how much these three blessings we call children have changed.

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Merry Christmas 2009

2009-12-18T14:18:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas from the Mainiero Family: Victor, Melissa, Jacob (13), Zachary (12) and Ava (2)!

We hope that this finds everyone well and enjoying time with family and friends. This year has been busier than ever for our family and at times it has been more than overwhelming. But we know God is good and trust that he will continue to see us through each challenge.

Victor and I continue to work in the field of public education. Victor, being in his third year as a principal, is settling in to his position and making great progress. Working in postsecondary education in the State of Louisiana has its challenges the past year. Louisiana is facing extreme budget cuts and the two agencies that are not protected from these cuts are higher education and health care.

Recently I realized that next August Victor and I will have a preschooler, middle schooler and a high schooler. So I am sure next year’s letter will have some exciting things to report.
Jacob is still very involved in soccer, running, and golf but his recent quest has been to shoot his first deer. I keep telling him to be patient and that his deer is just waiting until he has at least 8 points to come out of the woods. He has grown up (spiritually, mentally and physically) so much this year. A few weeks ago at about 10:00 p.m. I asked him why he was still awake. Yes, I said it with the “mom voice” and the response was “Mom, I’m reading the Bible.” What more could I ask for?

Zachary is doing well and we are focused this year on making the right decision related to middle school placement. This is definitely the main focus of our prayers for him and for the educators that play a significant role in his future. The enclosed photo is definitely for Zachary! He still loves the beach and as a result, we may never be able to take a summer vacation anywhere other than the beach.

Ava – where to start? She is a blessing beyond words and continues to amaze us with what she learns and the things she likes to do. While she does like to watch some children’s shows, she prefers CMT – yes, Country Music Television. Her favorite artists: Taylor Swift, Toby Keith, Trace Adkins, and Keith Urban. She is the joy in our hearts and we know God has blessed us with her for a very specific reason. With warm hearts, we thank Him for her and our boys every day.

Our parents continue to live near us and provide so much support and love to our family that it is overwhelming at times. Victor and I could not do what we do without them and the other family members and friends.

I am sure as you read this you are focused on parties, gift wrapping, baking, Christmas programs, and everything else that seems to attach itself to this time of year. The Mainiero family prays that everyone will remain focused on the reason this time of year exists and that is the miraculous birth of our savior Jesus Christ.

Jacob's Education Metaphor

2009-08-06T18:33:00.000-07:00

You know you are a true educator inside and out - 24/7 when your thirteen year old presents you with this thought during dinner. What prompted this was Victor telling us about the new State law that requires teachers to allow students to make up work even when they are suspended (usually an unexcused absence):

Jacob: Mom and Dad, I've been thinking. Here is how I think of education. You have a grocery store (the State Education Department). Inside the grocery store you have an aisle with a bunch of different boxes of chocolate (all of the different districts). Each are labeled with the same thing "blah, blah, blah, blah." Inside the box are all different kinds of pieces of chocolate (parents and teachers). You pick one up and it is anyones guess on what you will get.

Me (trying to keep a straight face): Good metaphor Jacob but I have a few questions. Why the "blah, blah, blah."

Jacob: Because nobody listens to the parents and teachers even though they are closest to the students.

Me: Also, where are the students in your example?

Jacob: They aren't even in the picture.

Makes you think about the education system we have that a thirteen year old has this picture of what the state of education is.

Learning from Mistakes?

2009-05-19T18:12:00.000-07:00

During my drive to work every morning, I often have random thoughts or set up my strategy for the day in my head. This morning my mind was wandering in many directions but became focused on parenting. Jacob and Zachary are 17 months apart so there was not much opportunity to learn from any mistakes made as I "parented" Jacob and correct them for the benefit of Zachary. I often wondered if the closeness in their age and my lack of mature parenting skills had anything to do with Zachary's delays. For those of you who are close to me, you know I am beyond blaming myself but that thought process is still part of who I was back then and sometimes I do go back. Doing so actually makes me realize how much we have all progressed and grown as a family and as Christians.

Fast forward 12 years when God gave us the beautiful gift of Ava. It was different from the very beginning. Not planned, carefree and easy pregnancy (yes even as AMA - advanced maternal age), only gained 35 pounds versus 60 pounds (yes, really), and the list goes on. Unfortunately, the morning sickness was the same. Even more surprising to many friends and family we decided not to find out what we were having. I am typically the person that is over prepared and can't handle surprises. Since my mom is not on FB or rarely reads the Blog, I can admit that I snooped with success almost every Christmas. I still cannot express the amazing feeling I had in my heart when we saw that it was a girl. I was truly expecting a boy. Thank you Kristin for capturing the moment for us!

Nineteen months later I am focused on the saying "mistakes are okay if you learn from them." I am an educator and I do believe that but the first step is realizing that you made the mistake in the first place. But what about parenting? As I stated earlier with Jacob and Zachary, there was not enough time to realize the mistakes, let alone make any changes. So I ask myself, "what mistakes did I make, have I learned from them, what can I do to make sure I don't make them again?" I do not seek to be the perfect parent or perfect wife, daughter, sister, or friend but I pray that whatever choices or decisions I make will always glorify God. How do we know that we, as parents, are making the right decisions for our children? Are we giving them every opportunity to discover the gifts God gave them and be able to use their gifts for His glory?

My Life with a 13 Year Old

2009-05-04T19:24:00.000-07:00

It was saturday night and there we were, me and Victor, at the Opera after a wonderful dinner. Kids are home with the babysitter, Jena who is a college student. We called home after dinner just to make sure all was okay and of course the response from the 13 year old was "sure, why wouldn't it be." So off to the opera. Just as the curtain was raised, my phone started to buzz. I did not answer. Then Victor's buzzed. Then mine buzzed again. At this point what do I do - make a whole row of people stand up so I can get out to answer and then again to let me back in? My thoughts started to run wild. With my purse flap covering the light from my phone, I sent a text to Jacob "Is all ok?" Of course, it went unanswered. I sent the same text to the babysitter. No response. In the meantime, I am missing the first 10 minutes of the opera which is in Italian with subheadings but I am too preoccupied to follow. You can imagine all of the thoughts that were going through my head. One thought was "oh, my what could be going on?" but quickly followed with "why do I pay his cell phone bill?" Then I thought, maybe if I dial his number, he will see that there is a text and respond. Finally, this worked! He sent me a text that went like this (spelling corrected and no abbreviations included here) "where is the other container of popcorn kernals? we are out and I want to cook some more. everything else is fine." Still concealing my phone under the flap of my purse and hoping the older lady next to me does not turn me into the "opera police" for violating the rules of opera behavior, I sent him a reply that made it clear to him I was not pleased. My gracious, this parenting stuff is hard but I would not trade being the mother to Jacob (13), Zachary (2 months shy of 12) and Ava (19 months today).

What in the world have we been up to?

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Well as many of you can sympathize, we have been very busy over the last few months and I have neglected the blog. Surely the February 1st - last post date is an error. Here are some pics to give you an idea of what has been happening. I promise to do better and post more often.

Date Night - Earnest's and the Opera

Ava - always happy in the morning

Jacob - Orthodontist will probably not be happy with the Easter Bunny for this.

Zachary - listen to some tunes on Daddy's phone with his shades on.

We love springtime at Grandma and Papa T's house.

Spring Break hairstyle complements of Daddy - two pigtails and one bow.

Riding around the block with Papa T.

Easter Sunday

Paintball to Celebrate Jacob Turning 13!

2009-02-01T08:37:00.001-08:00

I cannot believe I am almost the mother of a teenager. Jacob will turn 13 on February 10th. We celebrated a little early with a paintball party in partnership with Alex. It was a great time with 20 middle schoolers and two adults. Yes, the dads both played. I am happy to report no major injuries. Just several bruises.

2009?

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Are we really only 5 days into 2009? So much has happened already. My mom was scheduled for hip replacement on New Year's Eve but it had to be rescheduled because she was misinformed about when to stop taking her blood thinner. So, her blood was too thin. It will now take place Monday, January 5th. Ava will go to the Mainiero's for the next several weeks every morning at 6:00 am. Victor will take her so he can be to work by 7:00 and I will stay here waiting for the boys buses - Jacob at 6:45 and Zachary at 7:30. So, I will get to battle the wild morning Bossier City traffic and try to be to work by 8:00. Victor's Dad will drive to our house in the afternoons to meet the boys' buses after school. Please pray for my mom and a speedy recovery. Also for all of us as we change our routines. Hopefully, no speeding tickets. :)

My sister, Michelle, who is 40 was rushed to the ER on New Year's Day morning with her rapid heart rate issue (220 bpm) that she battles. She had let it go on much too long this time and caused a mild heart attack. Much to our surprise, they released her late that afternoon. After waking from a nap at her house, she called my mom in a panic because her speech was gone. My dad and brother rushed to her house and called 911. She suffered what is called a TIA (I think). It is a mini stroke with no longlasting effects. She stayed overnight and was sent home with orders to take her medicine and make sure she follows through with the ablation procedure to fix what is causing the heart rate issues and eat right. Please pray that she listens. It is hard on her twins since she and Joe divorced two years ago.

Yes, it has just been 5 days into the New Year. I pray that there is much less excitement the next week.

Fall 2008 Family Pictures

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Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Christmas 2008

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Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Merry Christmas 2008

2008-12-17T19:13:00.000-08:00

It is hard to believe that it has been a year since the last Christmas card mailing. 2008 has been full of fun, excitement, challenges and blessings. I thought that instead of writing the traditional paragraph style Christmas letter, I would share with you how God has worked in our lives to turn each challenge into a blessing.

Challenge: balancing life with a one year old, a very special 11 year old, and a 12 year old

Blessing: becoming a family of 5. Zachary finally realized that Ava is here to stay and that she is not an “it” but a “she.” He now says “get her” instead of “get it” when he wants her out of his room. Ava adores Jacob more than I could have ever imagined and I think Jacob feels the same. Jacob reminds me that he will be 30 when Ava graduates from high school. Definitely a blessing! He can be there when her first date picks her up!

Challenge: getting Zachary to sleep in his own bed all night without coming into our bed every night at 2:00am

Blessing: discovering that this was our challenge not Zachary’s. Victor and I had put off “making” him sleep in his own bed. I can’t tell you how many times we said, “this is the week that we are going to make it happen.” Truth is, it only took two nights and that was it. No crying, no protest at all! Now it is hard to wake him up in the mornings. So the blessing is seeing how much God has taught us through precious Zachary!

Challenge: adjusting to life with an infant in the house AGAIN

Blessing: being able to savor each moment while knowing what is to come over the next 12 years. We are such different parents to Ava than we were to the boys. Not better, just different. I have not been able to really describe it or explain why we are different. I can only say that we are calmer, more patient, and believe it or not flexible. Why we are different? My thought is that we have seen God’s miracle of life go from an infant to a middle school student. We don’t stress over the little things but take each in and realize that each moment of each day is a gift to be cherished. Yes, there are still moments of chaos but they are brief and quickly forgotten.

Challenge: knowing the fact that siblings of autistic children are more likely to be in the autistic spectrum than their peers who are in families with no children with autism

Blessing: BELIEVING not just saying or thinking, but truly believing and trusting that God created each of us for a unique purpose. The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. PSALM 121:7-8. This verse is painted on the wall by Ava’s crib and is a reminder to me that whatever His plan is, it is good! Over the past year, we have watched Ava and celebrated each milestone including crawling, turning when you say her name, and each new word. She is quite the talker! She even says “hi” with the sweetest southern accent. And of course the boys have taught her to say football.

Updates on all of us – Victor is in his second year as Principal at Youree Drive MS, I have a new position as Associate Vice Chancellor of Academic Services at LSUS, Jacob is in the 7th grade and still loves soccer, golf, hunting and art. Yes, hunting! He successfully completed his hunter safety course this fall. Zachary is in the 4th grade at a new elementary school and has the same special education teacher, and little Ava is 14 and ½ months old and changes every week. Big surprise – she has light hair and blues eyes. Victor’s parents are well and continue to enjoy retirement. My Dad continues to work and my Mom is having a hip replaced New Year’s Eve. She hosted her big Christmas open house with much pain and cannot put it off any longer. Please pray she recovers quickly so that she can get back to life. Especially meaningful to us is the care she provides all of her grandchildren when we are at work or in need of a helping hand. Victor’s parents will be helping out while she is recovering.

In closing, we are so blessed and thank God each day for the way He shows us how challenges are just blessings waiting to be discovered. We pray that during this Christmas season and New Year that you will discover an abundance of blessings! Love, Victor, Melissa, Jacob, Zachary & Ava Mainiero

A little peek into me!

2008-12-17T18:42:00.000-08:00

Before you read this, there is a little disclaimer! I am sure that I am not the only one that does things like this especially this time of year but it makes me feel better to put out there for all to read and know that we are not alone in this time of chaos. Raising children, working, taking care of our husbands, cleaning house, Christmas shopping, baking (yes, on occassion I do bake), wrapping presents, mailing cards, and this that and everything.

So this is my life. I was out of town at a conference last saturday the 6th through tuesday the 9th, came back sick, we hosted the Youree Drive Middle School Christmas party at our house Friday the 12th , hosted a sunday school class party at our house saturday the 13th, cooked for and attended my parents' open house sunday the 14th, monday still sick and back to the doctor this is where the fun begins - yes chaos seems to begin -

This morning I am getting ready as usual, nothing out of the ordinary. Does anyone else out there multitask? I don't mean thinking while driving (that is how Victor describes his multitasking). I mean really multitasking! I am sure that I already knew I did this but this morning I really saw inside myself. I was brushing my teeth and became distressed when I could not find something else to do while brushing my teeth. WHAT?!!? Was I seriously thinking, "I have to do two things at once even in the two minute time span of brushing my teeth?" Yes, I was! Do I need medication? Surely this is described in a some physician desk reference somewhere!

Then I make the comment to Victor that I was surprised that I weighed _____ when I was at the doctor's office this week. I will not put a number here. I will say that it was not much less than I weighed in my last month of pregnancy. So what does Victor say? "I would never guess that you weigh that much." Not upsetting now that we have been married for almost 14 years but Jacob had a response after hearing this. Mom, what he should have said was, "in my mind you weigh just what you did when we got married." Very funny! Too bad Victor did not hear him and I am still wondering how he came up with that!

So as the week comes to an end, I look ahead at all that needs to be accomplished before December 25th.
Prepare food for office lunch Friday
Bake Christmas Cookies
Mail Cards
Finish Shopping
Wrap Gifts
and all of the other things I am forgetting!

If any of you have ideas on how to be an efficient multitasker without loosing your mind, PLEASE give me a crash course!

How does a little girl spend her time when...

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...she has a 12 year old brother? That's right, gets in the middle of all of the fun he is having with his friends. I remember being the little sister of a brother who slammed many doors in my face when I wanted to see what he and his friends were up to. At this point, Jacob is still allowing her to be in the middle. He even lets her push all of the buttons. We will see how long that lasts!

Happy Fall!

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Boys and Trees!

2008-10-26T14:11:00.000-07:00

I love my boys! Any guess who climbed the tree first? If I had not been there, I would have said Jacob. Well, Zachary decided to climb the tree and Jacob followed. It was not a huge tree. Actually, it was a Crepe Myrtle. But a tree is a tree and and Zachary climbed it!

Big Brother - Little Sister

2008-10-05T14:15:00.000-07:00

Let me set the stage a bit for the heart of the blog. It is Friday night about 9:00 and Victor and I are just getting home. In my head I am thinking, "What were you thinking planning a party at 10:00am Saturday when you work all week?" All three kids are still awake, none of them are bathed or ready for bed, and Jacob is beside himself because his printer is out of ink and he needs my help. So, I say to him, "Jacob, what is so important that you have to print right now when there is no school tomorrow? Can't you see we are busy? Just go take your shower." Jacob, responds, "Mom, it is for Ava." So after the baths were given, Victor helped him get it to the other computer and printed. The result is what is typed below...Lesson learned...

Dear Ava,
I love you very much and I hope you have a good first birthday. You are the best thing that will most likely ever happen to me. I hope that you will have the greatest things that our family can offer for you and I hope that you will grow up to be just as good as I could ever be. I will always love you as long as I live. I will never forget the greatest blessing that happened to me on October 4th, 2007. Whenever you read this letter, I hope that you will remember your family, even furture in laws, and all the other people who love you. I just want you to know that God made you a blessing to this family, His family, and that you will always be loved as long as you live.

Love your Eldest Brother,
Jacob

AVA Turns 1!

2008-10-04T18:15:00.000-07:00

What does a little girl named Ava Marie do on her first Birthday?

Play with her toys and show off for everyone.

Go for a swing with her Papa T.

Look at a cake that her Aunt Lori and Aunt Kasie made special!

Open presents.

Listen as everyone sings happy birthday to her.

and play with her cousins!

Believe!

2008-09-15T18:27:00.000-07:00

As most of you know, in my previous career, I was a teacher. But aren't we all teachers? Don't we all have opportunities to believe in someone? Do we miss opportunities to inspire and help people develop to their fullest potential? Even more important, as adults, do we develop into the person God intends us to be? Watch this video of a young man who has obviously been inspired and believed in!

http://www.dallasisd.org/keynote.htm

Shark or Baby?

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Definitely a baby with a lot of hair! Ava loves her bath and her daddy loves to make her hair into funny shapes.

Why?

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Zachary is so unique in everything he does! I stand amazed at how he plays and comes up with all sorts of things that entertain us and keep giving us answers to the question of "why God?"

So the story starts with Zachary going for a bike ride outside with Victor on his big new three wheel bike. After returning from the bike ride, I hear Zachary (from upstairs) saying "Ava Marie's pink tricycle." As Zachary does, he says things several times until someone responds or acknowledges that we hear him. So after hearing this several times, I went to see what he was talking about and this is what I saw. Zachary "riding" Ava's tricycle down the stairs with a huge grin. Oh, and listenting to music on his headphones at the same time.

Not long after this picture was taken, there he was laying so peacefully on the couch taking a nap. For those of you who know Zachary, naps have never been part of his routine. It is a time like this that I have all of the answers to that question of "Why God?" Why...because His works are wonderful and Zachary is wonderfully made! Psalm 139:14

Ava is 11 Months Old!

2008-09-04T17:37:00.001-07:00

It is hard to believe that Ava is just one month shy of a year old! Each day brings something new to her world and certainly to the lives of each of us. She is crawling, pointing, talking, pulling up, walking along the couch, laughing, saying a few words (dog, dada, papa, etc.) and so much more. She is also starting to favor certain toys over others and makes it very clear when you take something from her or when she can't get what she wants. The toy she has in these pictures is her newest favorite. She can actually crawl all over the place with this "little person" in her mouth. She loves her bath and screams when it is over. Then she tries to join Zachary for his as soon as she hears the water come on. We thank God everyday for bringing this beautiful blessing into our lives.

GEAUX Tigers!!!

2008-09-04T17:33:00.000-07:00

Here is Ava in her Purple and Gold for the first time!

Zachary Secretin Update

2008-08-09T19:28:00.000-07:00

Zachary has been on the new form of the Secretin (still the transdermal) and there seems to be some difference in his behavior. He seems more agitated when things don't go the way he wants them to go. On the positive side, he is reading more and will stay with an activity longer. An example of this was watching Wipe Out with Victor last Tuesday. He actually sat with him for the full hour and laughed at parts of it. This is a rare event for Zachary. He is typically more interested in watching something in fastforward or rewind. For those of you who have not watched Wipe Out, it is very funny.

Pajama Pics

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I just had to take some pictures of Ava in her Elephant PJs before she grows out of them.

Ava hits double digits...

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Ava is 10 months old. Here is a set of pics!

Prayers Answered

2008-08-03T15:15:00.000-07:00

We are very thankful to everyone who was praying for Zachary. A solution to the secretin supply has been found. It will require changing the type of secretin and a little more cost to us but we are so blessed that Zachary will not have to be without it.

Zachary

2008-07-28T19:51:00.000-07:00

Since Zachary was 4, we have administered a treatment to Zachary called secretin. It improved a variety of "symptoms" related to autism in dramatic ways. It is not a proven treatment for autism but we did our own studies by taking him off of it periodically to test and see what the teachers noticed (not telling them). They could always notice when he was off of it and we could definitely notice in big ways. This used to be given through IV push which is how we met Alita and how she made what seemed to be, at the time, a small mark in our lives. She was the only one that could do the IV in his tina hands and was so giving of her time by volunteering to do it during lunch. After two years (every 6 weeks) of that, John (vic's brother the pharmacist) and Jennifer (at Dr. Hughes’ office) found a transdermal method that we rub on his back every night. This is a much easier method than the IV as you can imagine.

Here comes the prayer request. John called Victor today and said there is a backlog of orders due to increased awareness of this treatment. So, we have two days of treatments left and will not get more until November at the earliest. There is only a one month shelf life and very few companies that produce it because it is not a big money maker (small population of people needing it – and few uses). So what to pray for?

My first thought is "please God, minimize the effects of not having the treatment."

But then my brain and memory take over reminding me of the sleepless nights and no hugs. My first hug from Zachary came when he was 4 not long after the second secretin treatment. I still remember feeling his little arms around me for the first time. I have that picture in my office and I treasure it more than words can say.

Then I move to "Thank you God that more people have seen the benefits and been able to get that first hug, playful smile, or even direct eye contact for more than a second. Please God, help the company make it faster so that everyone who needs it will have it!"

Next - "God, help John find another source even if we have to administer it through IV's again. If that is the case, please bring us someone like Alita who can bless us with the gifts God gave her.”

As most of you know, Zachary will transition to a new school in August. This is a hard event even with the secretin treatments. So, I pray for this to go well and that his teachers and the new students will all adjust.

Zachary expects so little of us compared to what we expect of him. That is probably the hardest realization I have expressed in many years related to Zachary's autism. Having a baby in the house and watching her hit all of the milestones has brought so many questions back to mind. Did Zachary do that? How old was he when he did that? Why don't I remember him doing this? So the prayer that I will go to bed tonight with is "Please God help Zachary know how much we love him and are here for him no matter what."

July 4th

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Happy Independence Day and Happy Ava 9 months!

Ava is 19 pounds and 28 inches. she is growing fast. She crawls, has two teeth and waves to everyone.

Girlie Girl

2008-06-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

Every girl needs a tutu, a set of pearls and tons of bows! Oh, and pink is preferred.

Ava will be 9 months on the fourth of July. Victor and I are amazed at her more every day. She sleeps all night, rarely cries and loves her brothers.

Grandma and Papa T

2008-06-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

Yes, Papa T has grown facial hair! As usual, Grandma T was the most prepared for the trip bringing everything imaginable to make the trip fun for all! Thanks for all of the love and a great time.

Grandma and Papa Mainiero

2008-06-24T18:35:00.000-07:00

This is the first year that the Mainiero's got to go to beach with us. I hope they enjoyed it!

Family

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Ignore the ensemble that Victor has on! Obviously I did not approve of the outfit before the pictures. I had enough to worry about with the other four in the family.

Ashley and Gabrielle

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Gabrielle is 9 going on 20 and Ashley is 11 going on 20! What great nieces they are! Ava loves them. Gabrielle and Ava have the same eyes.

Greg and Family

2008-06-24T18:11:00.000-07:00

Any guess which picture Tara will want blown up?

My Brother and Zachary

2008-06-24T17:54:00.000-07:00

My brother always brings out the little boy in Zachary. It is a rare occasion that I can capture a smile like this one. Thank you Uncle Greg! We had a great time.

Any Guesses?

2008-06-24T17:40:00.000-07:00

What is Zachary thinking? Because Autism has an effect on Zachary's communication skills (as we define them) we often find ourselves looking at him and wondering what in the world is going on inside that head of his. He has the most amazing expressions and is always thinking. Here are some of what I can imagine. If any of you have a suggestion, please post it to the comments. We would love to hear your thoughts.

1. When are we going to be done?

2. What would she do if I jumped in the lagoon?

3. Does she really expect me to take pictures and cooperate when I could be in the pool or the ocean?

4. Does this mean we are going home tomorrow?

5. Someone needs to hide that camera.

6. I need to have a talk with Dad about this camera thing.

7. I wonder how much trouble I would get in if I pushed her into the water.

8. I thought Ava was the focus of all pictures now but I am convinced that Mom has regressed.

On the Dock

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2 + 1 = 3

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Some of you may have seen the pictures of the boys that I take every year we are at the beach. I always take one of them looking out at the beach with their backs to the camera. It has been amazing to see how they have grown over the past six years. So the question this trip was how to incorporate Ava, their little sister, into the picture. This one is my favorite. She is looking up at them as if to ask, "Hey, what are you boys doing? Am I supposed to be looking out there too?" As my friend Kristin has often said, "welcome to the mother of 3 club." The first time I heard her say that, I thought how different could it be than two. I can definitely testify that having 3 is VERY different and thank God everyday for the pleasure of being the mother to three great kids: Jacob 12, Zachary 11, and Ava 8 and 1/2 months.

At the Beach!

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First Photo

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I could not have guessed that the photo I posted first from the beach would be the one below. But what can I say? It is. Any guesses on what happened? Frisbee? Door? Boogie board? Last chance to guess.

I am sure I have shared with many of you how much Ava loves her bed. Well, she is not so fond of her pack and play. Last night, the second night, I was trying to get her to sleep by laying her in our bed next to us. This backfired when she raised her head up in frustration. I now have proof that she has a hard head. While I have this evidence of her "head butting" me, she was not phased one bit. Of course the boys were crab hunting when this happened. When Victor got back, I told him what happened and that I might have a little bruise. He replied, "No not quite, you have a black eye. " I promise to replace this with a better picture soon. We are having a great time and all are adjusting. Tonight I put Ava in her pack and play and she fell asleep in a matter of seconds. Zachary loves the condo now because of the pool. He was having a hard time at first and was asking for the "beach house." Jacob is growing up so much and is a huge help!

We are off to the...

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BEACH

Watch for pictures soon. The whole crew is going - the five of us, both sets of parents, my brother's family (5 people) and my sister's twins. Yes, we are getting 2 condos. So pray that every aspect of the trip is safe and that we are blessed while enjoying one of God's many amzing creations. This is Victor's parents first trip to the beach so they are excited. Also pray that Zachary adjusts well to the change from the beach house to a condo. It is hard to believe that I was pregnant with Ava last year when we were there. We all can't wait to see how she reacts to the ocean, sand (will probably try to eat it), swimming pool, and of course the 8+ hour car ride.

Brother and Sister

2008-06-05T17:46:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe Ava is 8 months old. Two teeth have just broken through on the bottom. Watch the blog beginning June 16th or so. We will be at the beach for a week.

Zachary

2008-06-05T17:36:00.001-07:00

What does a special boy like Zachary get when he turns 11?

Sweet Ava

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This dresss was my Mother's christening gown and it is 65 years old. It is a true blessing that she has kept it safe all of these years and that Ava was able to wear it for her 6 month photo shoot. Thank you Kristin for capturing it.

Victor's Brother Dominic and Family!

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Victoria, Lori, Mason, Dominic, and Aaron

FREEDOM!

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Barksdale Air Show

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Ava and Jacob enjoyed the Air Show last weekend. She was quite a hit and Jacob nevers gets tired of seeing all of the exhibits and performances. Zachary spent the day at the Mainiero's. All of the noise and people are a little much for him. Thanks to Papa and Grandma T for letting us attend each year.

Crazy birds! I mean bird, as in singular.

2008-05-04T19:12:00.000-07:00

Two years ago birds built a nest by our side door. After eggs were laid, they started to become very territorial to the point that they attacked us or anyone else that walked near the side of the house. Last year they returned to find a nerf ball in the spot they wanted to build a nest. That worked and kept them away. I found out this year that the birds moved to our neighbor's house last year but would not be able to return because he closed in the corners with "bird boxes." Well, he was right! They did not return to his house but here they come to the Mainiero's house again only this time they are trying to build on the back porch. This could not happen because we are outside in the backyard all of the time. So, Jacob and I set out to get rid of them. I brushed the nest down 3 times, turned on the ceiling fan, etc. None of that worked. So here we go with the air "soft" guns. There is nothing soft about them apparently and Jacob is a good aim. Now as we sit here, there is only one bird sitting on the ledge of the porch ceiling and the other is...well not flying anymore. At first Jacob seemed so proud to have taken care of the problem but not long after the event, he said, "mom, I only wanted to scare it away, not kill it." My sweet animal loving Jacob! I have tried to reassure hime that it is OK and to say a prayer for comfort. I could never tell him that it makes me sad too. I will just comfort him through the sadness.

Ava is 7 months and has a new trick!

2008-05-04T16:40:00.001-07:00

What a face! When she blows through her lips, her eyes get really wide and she spits everywhere! She is really growing up fast! I cannot believe she is already 7 months old.

Swinging into Spring!

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Hey this is fun!

Happy Easter!

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For God so loved the world...

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"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

Another Person With an Incredible Gift

2008-03-17T17:09:00.000-07:00

Once again, someone with an amazing gift! The picture below is of Ava wearing a hat that Jolene, a coworker and friend of mine made. All I did was show her a picture and "poof."

Okay, so here I am with all of these people around me with incredible God given gifts. This one was made to fit her next winter so, if anyone wants one for next winter, let me know. I am sure she can make one in any color and size for you.

Ava is 5 months old!

2008-03-09T15:34:00.000-07:00

Were does the time go? Ava is 5 months old and has changed so much. She is squealing and laughing, drooling and chewing and so much more. This is her in the exersaucer for the first time. Look at those blue eyes. Still no sign of changing.

Hillary and Jesse Get Married

2008-03-09T15:09:00.000-07:00

Our first babysitter other than family, Hillary, got married to her high school sweetheart, Jesse. The boys were in the wedding. Jacob was the candle lighter and Zachary was the ring bearer. Oh, and somehow I was asked to serve as coordinator. Maybe since about half of the wedding party were students of mine when I taught high school, they thought they would listen to me. Hillary is like family and as Jacob said last night on the way home, "Hillary is married and I am so happy. But why am I crying? I have so many memories with her." What a sweet boy he is! We all have so many memories that started 6 years ago with Hillary and Jesse. Thank you for letting us be a part of your special day!

Paint Ball

2008-03-02T08:09:00.000-08:00

Jacob and his friend Alex Brooks celebrated their birthday with a joint Paint Ball Party at Off Limits Paint Ball. They had a blast. Even Victor played and re-injured his heel. He will have to have surgery March 19th to repair a partial tear to his Achilles.

Jacob the Scientist

2008-03-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

Jacob won 1st place in the Regional Science Fair - We will travel to Baton Rouge for the State Fair April 6th. Good Luck Jacob! We are so proud of you.

My Wonderful Friend Kristin Mosura

2008-02-29T13:45:00.000-08:00

Every now and then you meet someone that you know God sent into your life for a reason. Kristin Mosura is one of those people in my life. Many of you have seen some of the pictures on my blog and wondered who took them. While some I took, the most artistic ones were taken by my good friend Kristin Mosura. The images below were taken about a month ago. I could just look at them 100% times and be more amazed with each glance. Check out her blog http://www.kristinmosura.blogspot.com/ . Especially the information about her new studio on Viking Drive near Pediatric Dentistry and Cornerstone. God has given her such an inredible gift!

The Bumbo

2008-01-27T16:09:00.000-08:00

This was Ava's first time in the Bumbo. She likes it but can't figure out how to hold her head up and put her hands in her mouth at the same time. Her hands are her newest fascination. She is either staring at them our sucking on them all of the time.

Ava is 3 and 1/2 months old!

2008-01-19T14:58:00.000-08:00

I am amazed that little Ava is already approaching her 4 month birthday. Month 3 went by so fast. She is doing very well at 13 pounds, 6 oz and 24 and 1/2 inches. As you can see, she still has those amazing blue eyes. Unlike the boys, she is already sleeping all night and prefers to be laid down in her crib when she is tired.

Jacob's Smile

2008-01-02T18:16:00.000-08:00

I never could have imagined that when Jacob was born twelve years ago that this incredible smile would lighten my life with such amazing love and joy. Just when I thought he was getting to old for me to love on him, this note was taped to the door as I left this morning:

To: Mom

From: Jake the Snake

"Kiss me goodbye before you leave for work. I love you."

So, as I was about to walk out the door to go to work, I turned around and went to my husband and three kids while they were still tucked warm in their beds and kissed each one of them. What a blessing each of them are. I also had to say a prayer to thank God for an almost 12 year old who still wants to be kissed goodbye.

Remember Boom Boxes?

2008-01-02T18:10:00.000-08:00

Zachary's favorite gift as he listened to the Annie Soundtrack (his second favorite gift).

Bath Time!

2008-01-02T17:26:00.000-08:00

Ava loves her bath as you can see in this picture. She is such a joy and smiles and coos all of the time especially when her brothers talk to her.

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-20T12:01:00.000-08:00

My Poet Jacob

2007-12-11T16:39:00.001-08:00

Victor and I are amazed at our son Jacob who is apparently a poet! He wrote these this week for an English assignment. We are also so proud that he was selected as 6th grade student of the week and for the school wide science fair. Way to go Jacob! We love you.

Can You Imagine…

Birds who don’t fly,
And chickens without thighs,
Birds who don’t chirp,
And babies who don’t burp,
A cabinet without a door,
And a hog that’s not a boar,
People without arms,
And lions who don’t harm,
Fiction books that are true,
And nonfiction books that aren’t true,
A dog without a cage,
And a book without a page.

Can You Vision…

A man without eyes,
And men who don’t die,
A dog without food,
And football fans who don’t boo,
A wedding without rings,
And a chicken without wings,
People without hearts,
And robots without parts,
A woman without a brain,
And tracks without a train,
Animals without heads,
And a mattress without a bed.

My Zachary

2007-12-09T12:38:00.000-08:00

Does everyone remember the movie version of Annie? The one with Carol Burnett as Mrs. Hannigan? Well, this is Zachary's latest movie that he loves. The problem is, he found a part that he thinks is very funny and is using it in his everyday communication. I will try to set the scene for you:

Mrs. Hannigan runs an orphanage. She goes into the room where the girls are all sleeping and says, "Get out of bed, clean up this mess or there will be NO dinner!"

Zachary has taken parts of this and says it to us when appropriate...or not. For example, the get out of bed is used every morning, including saturdays, to get us out of bed. And my favorite is when he says, "There will be NO homework!" I am amazed by him more and more each day.

Ava is 2 months Old!

2007-12-08T09:51:00.000-08:00

Here is Ava. Two months old, 11 pounds 8 ounces and 22 1/2 inches. We are noticing something new about her everyday. Her chubby cheeks, incredible blue eyes, long eyelashes, sweet smile, silky head full of hair, and the list goes on. I am having so much fun putting bows in her hair (a big thank you to Fran for the supply of bows and to Kristin for the trick on how to keep them in). I am amazed by the passage of time and how much she has changed in just two months. It hit me the other day when I realized she was outgrowing some of the outfits that were huge on her when she was just born. Once I got over the tears, I pulled down a tub and started to fill it up with clothes that are to small.
Jacob and Zachary are still in amazement with Ava. Zachary wants her to be at home and gets a little upset when he can't find her. When I change her diapers, he comes in her room and asks, "PooPoo?"

What do I think about?

2007-11-27T17:20:00.000-08:00

Being back at work has been hard. I was used to thinking about when Ava ate last not about data and meetings, etc. So what gets me through the day? This is........

As I Return to Work

2007-11-25T17:02:00.000-08:00

Well, it is back to work I go. I am very thankful that while I am at work all day, little Ava will be with my Mom. I am sure she will be very spoiled and loved all day long. It is amazing how different it has been this time around. I have tried to reflect on why it is different and I go back and forth between two possibilities. A simple reason is that I am 10 years older and wiser. On the more deep and thoughtful side of motherhood, I think it has been different because I have already experienced how a baby in a mother's womb grows into a 10 and almost 12 year old. God is so good! How could anyone doubt his existence when you watch the miracle of a child unfold? So, as I return, I wanted to post some pictures from the beginning to show the miracle of Ava unfold in just a few weeks. Please pray for me and my family as we transition to the next stage.

Praying and Preparing for Baby

Minutes Old

One Week Old

Three Weeks Old

Six Weeks Old

I couldn't resist posting a few more...

2007-11-23T17:52:00.000-08:00

Mainiero Grandchildren - Ava Makes 7

2007-11-23T16:12:00.000-08:00

Zachary, Bella, Aaron, Jacob, Ava, Lucas and Victoria

"BLING"

2007-11-23T15:18:00.000-08:00

If any of you know my family, we don't hold back when it comes to celebrating Christmas. The boys each have a tree in their room with oranaments they have picked out or made over the years. So what to put in Ava's room for her first Christmas? Well, after I decorated the tree in this picture, Jacob announced how happy he was that Ava has a tree with "BLING." Of course, I had to explain to Grandma T what "BLING" means. Maybe we will have to convince her that she needs another tree with some bling added to her collection.

Seven Weeks Old

2007-11-22T19:06:00.000-08:00

Look at how much she has grown! Today was the day to capture some pictures for our Christmas card. Ava and the boys were so sweet that it will be hard to pick which pictures to include. Here is a sneak peek.

Every Girl Needs a Smocked Dress for Her 1st Christmas!

Every Girl Needs 2 Big Brothers!

Every Girl Needs a Bonnet!

Ava's Checkup

2007-11-04T07:49:00.000-08:00

Ava went to the doctor for her one month checkup. She weighed in at 8 lbs 8 ounces and measured 21 inches. She has gained one pound and grown an inch since she was born. They gave her the first of the hepatitis shots. She did not like that at all. Such a big needle for such a little thigh.

Friends!

2007-11-01T14:05:00.000-07:00

We have been so blessed by the love and support of so many! Family and friends and so many from our work and church have done so much for us! "Thank you" is definitely not enough to show how much it has meant to have these blessings over the last weeks.

AVA IS ONE MONTH OLD!

2007-11-01T13:57:00.001-07:00

I cannot believe it has been a month since Ava was born. Here she is on her one month birthday. As you can see, she is filling out very well and the hair is getting a little "poofier." She looks so much like Jacob when he was a baby. Such and angel!

I Promise!

2007-11-01T13:52:00.000-07:00

I promise that this is really not Ava crying! It is just her practicing her scary Halloween face. What mother would let her little angel cry just to get a picture of her on her first Halloween?

Last Night

2007-10-31T09:57:00.000-07:00

Last night little Zachary was trying so hard to communicate with us about something he could not find. All he was saying was "God," "black book," and other words between the crying and tears. After about 20 minutes of us trying to figure out what he was saying, I finally got it. There is a devotional book that he loves called "My Time with God." It is mostly black on the cover. When I gave it to him, he crawled in Victor's lap and wanted him to read certain pages to him. He fell asleep with the book in his hand so peaceful and content.

Is it possible..

2007-10-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

...that this little angel has changed so much in just 3 and 1/2 weeks? This was taken when she was just one week old. Look for a 4 week photo soon to see just how she has already changed.

Tummy Time

2007-10-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

Ava is still sleeping a lot and eating when she is not asleep. But yesterday during a few minutes that she was awake, I captured some time to let her lay on her tummy. She was only content for a few minutes. She is already changing so much and time is passing too fast.

Looking into her Daddy's eyes

2007-10-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

This picture amazes me. Just look at the intense gaze as she looks at her daddy. She was so focused on him! I do believe Ava is practicing how she will use those eyes in her lifetime to win her Daddy's approval and get anything she wants. Poor Victor! He doesn't stand a chance.

Little Sister

2007-10-21T09:10:00.001-07:00

Ava and her two big brothers...Wow, what will she do with these two much bigger brothers looking out for her and protecting her. She has already won their hearts and I'm certain this is just the beginning.

Two weeks old...

2007-10-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe Ava is two weeks old already. She went to the doctor for her check up. She weighed in at 7 lbs 10 oz. So she is back up to her birth weight. We have been so blessed by all of the kindness and support from family and friends during this very special time in our lives. This picture was taken after a storm this week. Ava was sleeping sound, as you can see from the other picture, in her bassinet. I am always amazed by a rainbow. It and the precious little sleeping beauty are both reminders to us that God is present in everything.

A Smile!

2007-10-14T13:56:00.001-07:00

Oh My!

2007-10-14T13:54:00.001-07:00

Hands...

2007-10-14T13:44:00.001-07:00

As I look at little Ava's hands, I cannot help but wonder and dream about what she will do with them for the rest of her life. Blow kisses, wave hello and goodbye, play the piano, hold the hands of her Daddy, Brothers, Mother, Grandparents, etc. So sweet she is from her head to her toes.

One week old!

2007-10-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

We are still amazed by God's blessing of a little girl to our family. Ava is so sweet! Many people have asked how Zachary is adjusting. Well, again I can say that God is good. Initially, Zachary would just take a quick peek at her and not say anything. With each day he gets a little closer and lingers longer. Last night he gave her a very gentle kiss on the forehead. I think he is waiting for her to do something besides eat and sleep.

Ava Update

2007-10-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

No More Light Blanket for Ava. Her levels went down yesterday and we were able to take her off the light last night. It was so nice to be able to snuggle her that it was hard to put her in the bassinet.

For all the LSU fans out there...

2007-10-09T07:36:00.000-07:00

Sweet friends Eddie and Charlie Johnson gave this little hat to Ava the day she was born. They were so sweet to everyone waiting while the big event was taking place. Thank you Eddie and Charlie! This picture is posted for my boss Dr. Mills the biggest LSU fan I know!

2007-10-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

We came home late saturday afternoon and settled in. Yesterday we took her to have her levels checked for jaundice. They had risen since saturday so a body wrap with telephoto lights was delivered to the house. They call it a blanket but it is stiff and hard. She has to be wrapped in it with only a diaper on until her levels come down. She has been very tolerant to this considering she went from being tightly swaddled in a soft blanket to this. The nurse will come to the house and check her levels this afternoon. Hopefully this will only take a couple of days to clear up. We know how blessed we are to have had such a good delivery and the blessing of little Ava from above.

Jacob's "Dear Ava"

2007-10-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

Jacob wrote a letter (below) to his sister the night she was born. She will be so loved and protected by him. He looks pretty proud considering he continuously stated he wanted a little brother and no part of a girl in the family - definitely love at first sight.

Dear Little Ava,

I love you with all my heart and soul. You will be the best sister and I know that you will have a loving family. Hope you like the pillows I made just for you.

Love, Jacob

Then I will always sing praises to your name as I fulfill my vows day after day. Psalm 61:8 NLT

Ava, one day old

2007-10-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

Ava Marie Mainiero

2007-10-04T14:33:00.000-07:00

Healthly sweet baby girl :)
7 pounds 8 ounces

Here she is......